Seems like everyone has a blog now. A good way to jaunt emotions, thoughts, what is going on in your life. I always wanted to label myself as a writer, but never felt I had to real talent to write. This is my first time around at this. It's more for me than anyone else. Doubtful anyone will actually ever see this.
Planning a second wedding seems a lot more difficult than the first time around. The first time around I did most things traditional even if I felt they weren't mean. I opted not to have a veil, but still wore a white dress. Got married in a church. My cake was a cheap one from a local supermarket bakery that we had fancied up a bit. Really wasn't into the cake cutting or first dance, but friends and family wanted that nonsense.
The first marriage didn't last (not even legally divorced yet from the first as I play to get hitched again) so now onto second.
This time around I am doing it how I want, when I want, and why I want to. This needs to be a reflection of our beliefs, love for each other and those in our close circle who care about us. It's more about the celebration of life and loving than it is about getting married.
My only struggle so far is the guest list. I am not wanting anyone to feel left out. Isn't that kind of egocentric though to think someone might feel left out if they are invited to our nuptials. Really don't think that would be the case at all. It's not so much about us, but some people left wondering..."well all my other friends were included and are going why not me?" Do you invite people who run in the same circle as you do but you don't necessarily have a close relationship with? Where is the line drawn? Everyone seems to have answer to ever question especially this girl. What answer fits for some, doesn't fit for me.
I never normally care what people think of me and what I do to begin with. With that thought in mind I am trying to adjust my way of thinking and do this for me, the boy and those close to us and not worry about other people and how they might feel. In the process going to have a ton of fun and learn some new skills. Rekindle close friendships that have dimmed a little due to distance, marriage children and enjoy life off of work for a few months.
Thank you.
